THERE IS NO PLAN!

I am a planner – always have been and most probably always will be.  I believe this is a godly attribute as God himself is a planner 🙂

I do life happily by having something to aim towards – some of my goals are little and some are ridiculously huge.

As a couple this was how Mark and I worked as well.  We got married with the plan to do missions.  When we were out on the mission field we were always planning the next tour, the next gig, the next adventure.

When Mark got sick and we were told it was cancer and he was going to die I continued with my planning.  This time it was not happy planning but planning for a future that involved Mark getting sicker, dying, a funeral and then life after as a young widow with four small girls.  It might seem morbid – but I had a plan.

As most of you know life doesn’t often go to our plan and of course life didn’t with Marks illness taking a very unexpected turn with the diagnosis of brain damage caused by the radiation treatment.  When this happened we found ourselves in no man’s land.  There was no plan!  And what was worse there could be no plan!  The neurologist, the oncologist and we ourselves had no idea how this illness could evolve.

I was lost!   This among other things caused me to cope very badly with Marks illness (I won’t elaborate because it is in my book).  I had to let go of my natural instinct to plan and have a goal and instead blindly trust that God, my heavenly Father, had a plan and he had it all under control despite the fact I didn’t.

Yes I learnt a lot of things through that, and yes I did learn to trust in God.

So why am I bringing this up?  Well I had a plan – yep I had a plan for how I was going to do the next few years of life while I still had one daughter left at school.  I thought my plan was in line with what I felt God was leading me into and so thought it was all sorted.

But last Sunday after some time spent alone with God asking him about some issues that needed to be sorted out to keep my plan working, God said, “Drop it, this is not my will for you to continue to pursue this.  It is useless to me and therefore useless to you.  Let it go.”

If there is one thing I have learnt to be good at it’s obedience to God’s voice.  I knew he had said it and it actually confirmed what I had started to figure out because what I was pursuing was simply not working out.

So here I am with no plan.  I have no idea what I am supposed to do next.  I am trying to learn about marketing my book because God told me to write it so I figure I better work at selling it.  But other than that – there is nothing!

All I want to do with my life and my days is tell others about Jesus.  I want God to use me to encourage people to know God or know him better.  That was the vision statement behind the book.

I am very blessed in my job to work at a Christian Medical Centre and I get to talk to people about Jesus, pray for them and try as much as I can to show God’s love in between the very busy phone and the administration required to run a doctors clinic.

But I know God is getting me ready for a change but I have no clue what that is.

God says in the well-known verse in Jeremiah 29:11

plan for you

So even though I don’t have a plan – I can trust that my Saviour does, but there is a condition to me knowing that plan and it is found in the following verses in  Jeremiah 29 Verses 12-14  

call on me

So at present this is what I am doing.  I am calling on God, I am praying to God and I am seeking God, both to draw closer to him but also to discover his plan for my future and what he wants me to do next.  I am trying not to get frustrated (which is my natural tendency) and I am trying not to force anything.  And I am waiting.

God has a wonderful plan for EVERY single person’s life.  A plan that you can’t possibly imagine, and it will fulfil all the desires that are in your heart.  But the condition to finding this plan and living it is like the scripture said, it’s calling on God, praying to him and seeking for him.  When you discover God, which he has promised you will if you ask, then you will also discover the plan and the steps to that plan.  Sometimes you will have to wait and trust for the next step, like I am at the moment, but it will come if you just keep following Jesus.

And so I wait in eager anticipation for the plans and the next steps he has for me.  I’ll keep you posted!

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7 thoughts on “THERE IS NO PLAN!

      • Ekkkkk glad to hear its coming on paperback!!! Exciting! Because of eyesight problems, I can’t read it on the computer so I was guttered I wouldn’t be able to read it!

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      • I am excited too. I actually just received the proof in the mail today – the girls and I keep looking at it kind of stunned. God is good because its only through him that this has been possible. So hope you enjoy it Rachel!

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  1. I love love love this post! I am also a planner, and I absolutely HATE not knowing what my future holds or what the plan is. I work very well on lists lol!! Even if the plan doesn’t pan out in the end, I like having something there to work with.

    I have had a few massive things lately that I know EXACTLY what I would love the plan to be, but not knowing what God has planned is driving me absolutely insane (One of those things is playing out this week, and every night I have not gotten more than 2 hours sleep, we find out the verdict on Tuesday o.O Don’t think I can function much longer on lack of sleep lol!!)
    But one of the things, I have been discussing in great great length with God about for months.. He’s been kinda giving me clues and hint that yes it is going to happen, but then I am not clear if it is him giving the hints or just wishful thinking. He did however remind one night that I don’t make the plans, he does. And told me “Be still, trust and KNOW that I am GOD” Straight after I went to go write in my journal (A christian one with little verses and sayings in it), our discussion and happened to flick to a page in it that had the verse about “I have plans for you, plans to prosper you” etc…. (If I remember it correctly? Can’t remember whole thing or where its from) Plus another 2 verses over the next page about Gods plans. He certainly made it very clear that night I was not in control lol!

    I can’t wait to hear about his plans for you! xxx

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